Truth Is...

So here's the thing blog readers;)...Truth is I have not told you everything when it comes to my current profession..true, I am a hairstylist. I have been one for 5 years & love love love doing hair/makeup. true, I am a wedding hairstylist & wedding planner since Aug. 09...this is a total dream job & when they offered me the position I felt like one of those girls in a chick flick who somehow gets a job she never even knew how to begin getting...they just said "we have a position available for a wedding planner..would you be interested in that" um have we met?!! OF COURSE!!!! so yes those 2 jobs I love with all my heart...however, neither one is full-time. Therefore, I must do something else to support myself...which is where I have to come clean on what that is...I have been working at a law office for over a year & 1/2 doing collection work & also remitting all of the payments that come in on our accounts to our clients, which are corporations...let me just say, the reason I did not mention this, is because, I detest my job. It is not fun for me to be mean to people and collect their money...to make matters worse...my boss is the most unethical man speaking down to everyone in the office, making prejudice & inappropriate comments, & flying off the handle at unpredictable moments screaming profanities & punching walls or his desk...yes that's right...I'm really letting the cat out of the bag here...but truth is I don't care. This has become extremely wearing on me..to the point where I'm like a 5 yr. old in the morning when it's time to get ready & go to work...kinda wanna throw a tantrum. I understand learning to work with different personalities & drama, but this is beyond an unhealthy work environment...All that said...I have routine break-downs about my current positon...constantly scanning craigslist for jobs, & leave the office to get a coffee or tea just to clear my head & remember who I am. That may sound very dramatic, but I am a super creative person & if I didn't have hair/weddings to vent that creativity..I would have spontaneous combustion!! The reason I started this blog was also to vent that creativity, which is why I feel I must come clean with my readers on my current situation. I desperately wish I could just do hair/weddings, but that is not enough for me financially so I'm looking for anything that will coinside with those 2 things to do & where I can feel good about it at the end of the day!!! AGHHHH!!! very frustrating!!!! I am however, excited bc I am meeting with a producer in Nashville for dinner tonight to discuss the posibility of me doing hair for music videos & tv!! My amazing & talented friend Ally G., led me to this wonderful connection...so we shall see...maybe there is a light at the end of the tunnel soon!!!